Then he said to me, “Fear not, Daniel, for from the first day that you set your heart to understand and humbled yourself before your God, your words have been heard, and I have come because of your words. (Daniel 10:12 ESV)
I couldn’t write this verse fast enough. It spoke to my heart so much I was almost in tears.
The last few weeks have been difficult. God showed me that there are still idols in my heart that I thought I gave up years ago. (Yes, pride) The enemy saw that opening and seized upon it. You know how it is – when it rains, it pours. Events just came together all menacing and threatening. Needless to say, I was a-frettin’ and a-worryin’ mess. “Twas not pretty.
Even in my sleep the enemy did not let up. The other night I had toe cramps.A bad one. I winced as I tried to fight it off. In my mind I knew that if I could just relax it would ease up. The problem is, my foot had trouble getting the message. So as I suffered and prayed, “Jesus, Jesus!” I heard this phrase in my head over and over again: Lay it down, lay it down. Finally, I felt the muscle relax I was able to lay my foot flat and relief finally came. As I drifted back to sleep, I knew God was speaking to me, not only about my foot but also about that idol. Because sometimes my heart also has trouble getting the message: Humble yourself – lay it all down.
Lay it down, so you’re not all in a knot.
Lay it down and let Me work in the situation.
Lay it down, you are not in control.
So the succeeding days became an exercise in “laying it down.” It was difficult because, well, I’m a control freak. I like things just so. But I’m also a born again Christian who profess faith in Jesus Christ. And what is faith unless it’s tested?
As I focused on the main verse, words just jumped out:
Strong’s H5414 – nathan
1) to give, bestow, grant, permit, ascribe, employ, devote, consecrate, dedicate, pay wages, sell, exchange, lend, commit, entrust, give over, deliver up, yield produce, occasion, produce, requite to, report, mention, utter, stretch out, extend
2) to put, set, put on, put upon, set, appoint, assign, designate
1) to be given, be bestowed, be given up, be delivered up
2) to be put upon
inner man, mind, will, heart, understanding
inner part, midst
mind, knowledge, thinking, reflection, memory
inclination, resolution, determination (of will)
heart (of moral character)
as seat of appetites
as seat of emotions and passions
as seat of courage
to discern, understand, consider
(Hithpolel) to show oneself discerning or attentive, consider diligently
(Polel) to teach, instruct
(TWOT) prudent, regard